The last couple of weeks have been rough. Daddy and i have not been on the same page at all. We've set our wedding for the first week in October but lately it just seems like a wedding is the last thing we should be planning.
Just a couple months ago our relationship was beautiful. So what happened?
I'm not sure. I know there's been a lot of extra stress from everywhere. I also know that Daddy says I'm not focused on the things i should be, instead i get wrapped up in distractions that only succeed in making Him crazy.
i know i hurt His feelings too, over the kitten. i feel He reacted too quickly, and didn't extend the extra patience that might of gotten through what turned into a huge painful experience. But then, i should of been more cognizant of how my responses were impacting Him. While Daddy is a big tough grown-up, He prolly isn't the best at sorting out emotions. Instead of dealing with hurt or painful feelings, He tends to let anger take the place of those emotions or feelings over which He really has no control.
I can think of examples when He was hurting emotionally, but put more effort in anger towards me rather then dealing with the emotions He was feeling. When Nan Nan died, i remember He was so angry at me over something that to me seemed so out of the realm of concern at the time, but instead of letting His sadness out and allowing me to comfort Him, He kept everything inside and just aimmed His anger at me.
He'd prolly disagree with this post...but i'm pretty sure there is some validity to it. i can give way too many examples or there not to be. Even during stressful times W/we have a more difficult time being on the same page. Some of this is due to my inability to focus on being on His same page....but i also believe that He is more apt to be less patient and more easily frustrated when stressed out.
Anyway, W/we talked today, and i think W/we've come to another stalemate, but at least the stalemates allow U/us to get past O/our issues and continue forward.
I feel like i need a prayer......something like "Dear God, grant me the skill and ability to anticipate and be on the same page as Daddy so that W/we may be once again a loving and committed couple.
Amen
Just a couple months ago our relationship was beautiful. So what happened?
I'm not sure. I know there's been a lot of extra stress from everywhere. I also know that Daddy says I'm not focused on the things i should be, instead i get wrapped up in distractions that only succeed in making Him crazy.
i know i hurt His feelings too, over the kitten. i feel He reacted too quickly, and didn't extend the extra patience that might of gotten through what turned into a huge painful experience. But then, i should of been more cognizant of how my responses were impacting Him. While Daddy is a big tough grown-up, He prolly isn't the best at sorting out emotions. Instead of dealing with hurt or painful feelings, He tends to let anger take the place of those emotions or feelings over which He really has no control.
I can think of examples when He was hurting emotionally, but put more effort in anger towards me rather then dealing with the emotions He was feeling. When Nan Nan died, i remember He was so angry at me over something that to me seemed so out of the realm of concern at the time, but instead of letting His sadness out and allowing me to comfort Him, He kept everything inside and just aimmed His anger at me.
He'd prolly disagree with this post...but i'm pretty sure there is some validity to it. i can give way too many examples or there not to be. Even during stressful times W/we have a more difficult time being on the same page. Some of this is due to my inability to focus on being on His same page....but i also believe that He is more apt to be less patient and more easily frustrated when stressed out.
Anyway, W/we talked today, and i think W/we've come to another stalemate, but at least the stalemates allow U/us to get past O/our issues and continue forward.
I feel like i need a prayer......something like "Dear God, grant me the skill and ability to anticipate and be on the same page as Daddy so that W/we may be once again a loving and committed couple.
Amen
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