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Under Your hand...my lessons are taught, my heart soars, my tears are brushed aside, my body blooms, my soul deepens, my slavery flourishes, my serenity exists

Ramblings

What i've learned about myself since i decided that i was interested in bdsm is that i'm always evolving. What i'd imagined my life as a slave would be like was only that....imagination. Imagining vs living it is just like the anticipation a child feels at Christmas time. You have all these ideas about what is in those wrapped presents, but until you open them up, it's all about the fantasy of the the wonderful things inside.
Being slave to Someone is much the same thing, you can anticipate what life will be like, but until you've managed the day to day intricacies of a D/s relationship it's hard to even begin to understand what it's like.

Most have read the article "Daddy Doms" by kendra, the article was actually my own first introduction to a Dominant Daddy figure many years ago. I thought life would be just as described in that article. What the article doesn't take into account is that Daddy Doms, just like any Dom is a real person, with real expectations and desires. Not necessarily based on the ideals of one babygirl.

Not that i'm the most experienced person, but of the Domminants i have met in real life, no two have been the same. Some are more demanding, some are more nurturing, some expect protocol, some scoff at any type of established idea of D/s. It really is about a personality type, and interests and expectations.

i'd describe my Daddy Dom as a Teacher, He enjoys sharing His knowledge and skill with others. He also is a perfectionist and expects His slave to strive for perfection at all times in all things. Communication is key between U/us. He's set a basic set of rules that i must follow. He strives to meet my needs, nurtures me and guides me in becoming His ideal slave.

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It's still hard at times to not just give up...the last 3 weeks have really taken a toll on my heart. i've been trying to recommit myself, i even have moments when i am more devoted then ever, but there are also moments when i'm so tired both physically and emotionally, tired of the heartaches, tired of having every flaw pointed out, tired of never being good enough, tired of never being understood, that i just want to sit down and not go any further. Always the part of me that loves and cherishes Him kicks in and i push on.

i try to keep in my mind the moments of bliss, the moments of love and laughter, the moments when i recognize that He's given me all that i could ever have dream possible. a D/s relationship has proven that i am not a very disciplined person. i try, i try, and i try, but my capabilities are sooo inadequate sometimes...

i think it's because i live most of my life trying to cope from the limbic part of my brain instead of from my frontal lobe.......then when something as little as harsh words are spoken to me......i downshift into my brainstem...i try to get used to being yelled at but it just doesn't come....

Welcome

this is a blog to celebrate Master's and my world as Dominate and slave. W/we've lived together over 4 years now and can both atest to the challenges O/ones face living the lifestyle 24/7.

as a slave i often allow many distractions to deter me from my ultimate goal of pleasing Master. i am hoping that by creating this blog, i will be able to use it as a tool to enrich O/our lives, as well as a way to help me focus my free time on becoming a more determined and disciplined slave.

This blog is dedicated to my Master and O/our life together...